The Scale

This weekend I got up on Saturday morning and stepped on the scale. To my amazement the number was lower than the day before. I have lost 22lbs so far on this program. I got off the scale and it set the tone for the day. I felt like a winner. I was so happy and wanted to shout to the world that I had lost 22 pounds. I pretty much did shout it to the world as I plastered it all over Facebook. I went shopping for a new dress to wear to a wedding that night and I swear I stood a little bit taller. The knowledge that I had lost 22 lbs gave me the courage to try on a dress that was not plus sized. I was amazed when it fit. I was so excited as I got ready that evening. I wouldn't even let my husband see me before I was completely ready to go. I almost felt like it was MY wedding. I felt like a princess for the first time in a long time. Then the realization hit me. I was putting so much value in the scale. Don't get me wrong it is o.k. to celebrate when the pounds come off. When I get all of my weight off there is going to be a celebration like you have never seen before BUT to allow a piece of metal to dictate how you feel and set the tone for the day. That is the problem and it is such an easy problem to fall into. You see, I was already a princess. I was the princess of the ALL MIGHTY KING.  The same God that created the son, the moon, the stars, the ocean all of the things that I look at in awe, that same God created me. That alone should allow me to stand up taller, that alone should make me realize that I have value, that alone should allow me to start every day feeling good about the things to come. The scale doesn't know if I have reached out to a brother or sister in need. The scale doesn't know that I skipped the chicken tenders and cookies at my church meeting. The scale doesn't know that I did an extra work out this week just for fun. It doesn't know that I am a good mother, friend and wife, yet I allow the scale to dictate my mood. If the numbers would have increased by 2 pounds I might have, no I WOULD have, gotten discouraged and been ashamed. I would have felt fat and ugly in whatever I decided to wear to the wedding. I might not have put the effort in to getting ready and I certainly wouldn't have had the butterflies that I had while getting ready for my husband to see me. The bible clearly says not to have idols but I think one could agree that many times I have idolized the scale. This time it is different. I realize that I am the daughter of the King. I have such peace in that knowledge and I truly believe that God is healing me from my addition to food. I am so thankful that I know him and know that he loves me. No eating program would work for me without that knowledge. I am losing weight with 21 day fix but I am gaining so much more and am so very thankful.